I’m been wondering about God and Jesus alot lately. And I’m really confused.
As many I have been brought up to believe everything the bible says and everything about God and Jesus, and there has been no other. This has always been the ONLY WAY, etc.
to be honest, almost nothing they have taught me in church or anything has made any sense. Especially the entire thing about god being so loving, caring, understanding, and forgiving. Maybe this is true, but the god the Christians portray isn’t very loving, nor understanding.
All sins are equal? So I can goto hell for eternity because I said a bad word, and burn as a guy who seems to have no soul and murders people? That doesn’t sound very loving. God wouldn’t understand a situation if I had some chemical imbalance in my brain that I cannot control and it led me to do something crazy? Or depressed where I hated everything? So I’d get punished for that? It seriously makes zero sense to me. That’s not love.
What is it with all the punishment? Usually parents love their kids and punish them so they’ll learn a lesson and become better people. What’s the point of hell if its for eternity? We couldn’t possibly learn better if its forever. so how does that even work out and make sense and what would be the point?
I honestly can’t seem to think of any realm that’d be any different and worse than this place. this world is a bit tricky and I find possibly even worse then hell could ever be. Maybe this is hell and we have all done horrible things in some past life? We have so many highs and lows. We can be happy one day, and it seems to be a trick because the next something horrible can happen and change everything. That is what hell should be.
In my heart most of the bible, and most of these teachings do not make sense, are not based on love, and more based on ego and keeping people under control. it’s just silly.
not to mention all the churches I’ve been to have been filled with liars and hypocrites, but when you bring it up a Christian says “everyone makes mistakes”, ha okay.
I’m at a point in life where I do believe in god, or the god Christians portray, but I just don’t like him. if that’s how he is then I don’t like him. it’s not love and its just not a happy scene.
But I do believe that God can’t be like that. I don’t believe God would create a place like hell and punish anyone, because he’d simply understand what would be going on in our heads and sometimes we really ardent ourselves and can’t control what we do, or do things we wouldn’t normally do. OF course you would have to be out of your mind and crazy to ever harm anyone, and especially kill someone. Normal people just don’t do that.
I tend to still believe in Jesus. He was so different for the times that he lived in. I can’t really imagine that someone back then could have been like that normally, and I can’t imagine someone back then just imagining such a figure up. Those were brutal times, and bad things were happening all the time. So a figure like Jesus was unheard of and couldn’t have been just thought up, and he wanted nothing but love, there is no point in to someone making him up because they get simply nothing out of it. Unlike most of the bible he did teach pure love, and again that is something that is really even unheard of today. So I think that he must’ve existed due to what he was about, and especially for the times that he lived in.
What’s funny is that if the Christian churches or whatever are correct, I’ll probably burn in hell just for thinking the way I am right now. And I’m not being evil or doing anything wrong. I’m just trying to make sense of the hypocritical things I’ve been told to believe all my life. And if they’re right and I’ll burn in hell for this, then I think I’d much rather burn than be amongst evil people like that in heaven for eternity. If that makes any sense.
there is this guy name Pat Condell, and I found one of his videos a while back on Liveleak. He’s really funny and witty, and makes so much sense. Mind you that he didn’t have any part in me starting to question and think the way I do, he just really makes sense and actually thinks with common sense, and that’s something new and fresh. I think we need more people like him in the world, then we wouldn’t have all these problems. His myspace is here, and you can check out his videos. I can almost guarantee that if you’re a person who likes to think… you’ll enjoy them.
http://www.myspace.com/patcondell
